Week 2 day 2

I am finding the sling very uncomfortable, especially at night but I am persevering, although I feel like screaming.
We have found a way to wear clothes. The straps of my spaghetti strap tops cut enable my tops to slide up under the sling straps and then tied on my shoulders.  And a tee shirt cut up the right side allows the sling to poke through!

The strap that goes under my left arm rides up and cuts me, very, very unpleasant. This op had better work because I can't do this again! Looks very neat on this model but not like this on me!
Chrisxx

I survived another 6 1/2 hour op.

 I have just got home this afternoon,  after my op last Thursday

The pain this time was awful  after the shoulder block anaesthesia wore off Friday afternoon, I was groaning for an hour and a half, it was my own fault I had been offered pain killers, but said I  was ok, then the pain hit me, so one tablet wasn't enough. I can't have morphine because it makes me sick so no injections. DH talked me through it with scenes of the sun glinting on the sea at Southend, the walk along the prom and that gentle breeze we loved so much; then picturing our favourite café smelling of coffee and the sounds of the frothing machine, with its delicious Italian ice-cream, a chocolate flake  and the crisp biscuit and rubbing my back, to try to take my mind off it, but it was the worst I 've ever had. I can't do this op again.

 I have come home with a huge wedge thing in a sling, so I can't put my arm through a sleeve? The wedge sling will be a nuisance but I can put up with it, if it means I will have my life back, it's only for 6 weeks. I was very wobbly this time, much more than before. Goodness knows how I will dress properly, at the moment my right droopy booby is exposed!!

I do have quite a bit of discomfort and I am still a bit wobbly, my legs feel as though they don't belong to me!!  The op took 6 1/2 hours this time. 

 I am to visit my Surgery weekly to have the nurse check the dressing and any serious sudden pain to phone the hospital, which I should have done before.. so strict instructions to do nothing at all that will involve putting a strain on my operated shoulder.. can't shower this time, so only strip washes.  Criky hope I don't get smelly!!  LOL

DH has an annual Dr's check up tomorrow and then we're popping to Saxmundham's Waitrose for a beef joint as #1DS is coming to try DH's cooking on the new cooker. Yes, we have had our new kitchen fitted. It was hell for 2 weeks and 3 days! But worth it and it looks spectacular.. pics are on my other blog. www.perhapslivingthegoodlife.blogspot.com

We think if we alter the bathroom, next year we'll book a week away when it's being done. We are still putting stuff in the kitchen and pantry and we still have the blinds and an open shelf to put up. 

At the moment we're not having else done, so we can have a rest from workmen and we're having a quiet Christmas, we just need a rest from everything. The three bedrooms are decorated and new carpets etc and the loft bedroom is fine, so no need to do anything else for quite a while.

Thank you to all my blogging friends for messages and emails, I feel truly blessed that people feel concerned for  me.

Love to you and remember you are lovely!

I had such joy when we swung into our driveway and relief. We love it here and so glad we moved here.

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Will I have my op or not?

I had a horribly stress day yesterday; the hospital phoned in the morning to say they had had the results of my urine sample, but wanted it path lab tested not just by the nurse,  so could I ask my surgery for some anti-biotics as a prophylactic!! Honestly it totally freaked me out, as I am fine, no infection.
I might as well have asked for gold, they waited till 5:50pm to fax the prescription to the chemist. I had to phone them 3 times to ask for it and then phone the chemist to ask had it arrived. DH went to the chemist and waited to get it as it arrived!! The hospital phoned me 3 times!! If I didn't have it my op would have been cancelled. I was a nervous wreck! We were in Southwold when they first phoned enjoying a coffee just about to have a walk along the front, so we walked after we got home and had been to the surgery straight away, to make sure they had had the fax about the anti-biotics. I didn't have to explain to the receptionist, because I think if she had queried it, I would have burst into tears, fortunately the fax explained it all.
It was a lovely walk, across the fields which is out across the road from our house, the leaves were golden in the afternoon sun. Nell loved it, running free.. she is still has fleas from the kennels we think. We've had the stronger treatment from the vet and she is banned from upstairs, clean bedding every day and in the kitchen at night. Dino (Dyson) stands guard by the door to keep her in the kitchen at night. She is afraid of the dyson!
 
I am looking up an independent GP I can't be doing this all the time, apart from that I didn't want any more anti-biotics I feel my body has had enough of everything. I must have had at least 100 x-rays over these 
2 1/2 years, plus ultra sound treatment, CT scans and MRI plus 3 ops.. so enough is enough. I am going privately if I can find a female one. There were 2 in Billericay.. and this op had better work. I am fed up!!! I can hardly use my arm after this last op, much too painful.
So that was my miserable day, I was weepy all afternoon!
This morning when I checked my phone, the hospital had phoned at 8:05, don't they realise  I am retired, I get up when I wake and then shower, sometimes it's gone 9:00am.. and I don't keep my phone beside my bed! I suppose they are covering all the bases, but the whole thing freaked me out. So my op. is booked for Thursday 2nd Nov.

XX

A big disappointment.

My op was cancelled because last evening I developed a UTI, I am screaming inside, but I now I can have a go at my CAL blanket. I am to be phoned in two weeks time and as long as everything is clear I shall have my op then. The surgeon was very nice and appreciated my feelings of disappointment. I was hoping to be really using my arm by Christmas.

XX

 

Just a little crochet

I have been able to do some more of my 'Sunshine and Showers' CAL blanket.. I did frog the 'puffs' twice. I wasn't happy with them and also the turquoise colour either side of the puffs, because although I followed the pattern exactly, it didn't look like her sample. So I did it till I was happy with the look. It is growing very slowly and as I am back into hospital this Thursday for the surgery all over again, I doubt I 'll be doing a lot after it. I shall try, but it isn't easy if every movement is painful. 

                                           

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Feeling good!

I lost this and half as much again... wa---hooooooo

                       

Back on the wagon!

Good results this week I lost 1.5 pounds, which has given me a lift. I have managed to get my head around the fact I am going to be a while losing this weight. I will not lose 2 stone before Christmas which is 14 weeks away, but I will lose weight when I keep to the  plan.. but thinking that is sooooo hard.
This is what I sometimes crave!!

XX

Do you have a weakness??

 

 

Where was my resolve???

Today I fell off the wagon, It started off well as we went out to eat in a fish restaurant. Dh and I shared a mixed fish platter, crab, lobster, cockles, muscles, prawns, smoked salmon, crevettes < huge prawns sp?> cray fish tails, whole prawns and whelks, all very healthy; but I also ate with it the warm crusty brown baguette and butter and a change for me a glass of rose.

We left the harbour restaurant and drove into Southwold town for a chocolate tiffin and coffee at Costa, I felt stuffed and we didn't need an evening meal, just a cuppa and Dh and I shared another cake!
There is such a delish bread and cake shop in Southwold.

But I have put the ladder ready to climb back onto the wagon in the morning, as I have already put in my order for breakfast to Dh for just fresh fruit salad!!

XX

I want to be at my best!

Our Garden

When we moved here, this flower area was filled with 6 or 7 conifers, close on 14ft high, which we had removed. Three months on and we have a garden!

 

 

The small trees, shrubs and flowers we have planted, but the huge sunflowers are from the birds! I don't have to tell you that we sit out here as often as we can. It is beautiful.

Our next project is to have the rickety path re-laid and a summer house sited just beyond the swing seat, which we will have moved to the lower part of the garden which we are leaving as woodland.

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