A delicious meal!

              I'd be very surprised if you didn't like this

Ingredients for 2

2 Salmon cutlets

8g butter (2 syns for SW)

400g Mushrooms

 500g Spinach

50g Fat reduced Cream cheese (Philadelphia or similar)

Salt and Pepper to taste

1 level tsp whole grain mustard

2 tsp lazy Garlic or 2 cloves

1 tbsp Water

Extra side, French Beans.(optiomal)

Method

Cook salmon in the butter and put to one side.

Gently cooked the sliced mushrooms in the same pan

Add spinach and garlic and mustard, salt and pepper and cook gently till spinach is wilted

Then add the cheese and water till the cheese has melted 

and let it sweat down.

Place salmon on top of  mushrooms and spinach and place lid on pan.

Allow it all the slowly cook through and the salmon is hot.

Cook French Beans to serve with salmon and veg.

Serve and enjoy.

This is absolutely delicious and we will be having this regularly.

Its so nice to find a new recipe for SW!

Chrisxx

Me Walking!

 Porthcawl Park Run takes place each Saturday. Its 5K from the harbor to Rest Bay and back.

On average there are about 300 plus runners, a lot doing it for a charity but many for the fun of it! 

Fun?? I used to think that walking was boring, but I've got better and I must admit it has helped me.  And it was a gloriously sunny day yesterday and it felt warm, so Dh and I went to the front promenade and had to park on the bit of road where Blue Badge holders are allowed to park. On sunny days people flock here and every where is crowded, so parking is difficult. 

We usually park at the same place mainly because the pavement is tarmacked and so I don't have to worry about uneven paved areas. My legs are a lot stronger, but I still walk very carefully and I'm happy to let people over take me!! I'm still paranoid about falling so hang onto my wheels and with the physio's words still in my head, I lift my feel higher than I think I need to.

We avoid this 'pod' too tempting to have a short bread biscuit with a coffee. (It has changed owners now)

Friday when it was raining we went to Aldi to walk up and around their wide aisles!! We did buy some bits, but we still have our groceries delivered from Tesco.. if its too wet to walk out next week, we'll walk the aisles of the Coop!! At least I'm walking!

Chrisxx

Great TV

 Did you watch it? We did and loved it!

Alan Carr was amazing, I think he won, because each time he was asked if he was Traitor he laughed and giggled his way out of the question.

So many iconic scenes, Celia's fart, the singing under water, the explosion in the last game.

Will there be another so dramatic, I wonder?

But now to take its place in Celebrity Race Across the World. I think Anita Rani and her dad will win, altho Dylan Llewelyn and his Mum Jackie's slow start might prove to be a winning strategy..

Anyway I'm loving it so far!

About time we had some decent programmes, after all we pay the license fee! It has seemed sometimes the schedules were all for young people, especially Saturday evenings, but its us oldies who stay in and watch TV.

Chrisxx

The Day After..

 Many thanks for all your comments about my UTI,  its becoming a real problem in my life. Our Surgery is having problems, so you can't get through to see a Dr and recently one has left, so they are even more pressed to see anyone from our 16,500 people who populate our town. There is just the one surgery. I have written twice to the Practice Manager and spoken to him face to face, but unfortunately the dire situation persists. So many people complain on the town FB page; I always comment and suggest they write their comments to the Practice Manager, if enough people did, there might be changes.

The 17 steps are from my bed to the toilet, not a stairway! I leave the door open, so its easy and I don't flush every time to save water.

Anyway in spite of being up drinking tea at 5:00, Dh had joined me, I didn't feel too bad yesterday. I went back to bed and he stayed up because its our Tesco delivery in the morning. 

When the rain stopped in the afternoon, we ventured into the garden to plant the foxgloves and aquilegia seedlings I had sown ready to plant out now.. We still have weeding and tidying to do ready for winter, but we'll do 20 minute sessions to get it all done over the next few weeks when it's dry.

Being outside made me feel loads better, and it didn't feel cold.

Gardens always make me better!

Chrisxx

WITS END!!

 This week has been a roller coaster of misery for me.. once again I am struck down by a condition that now seems to be chronic and the only person who seems to care is me! I know I've seen Drs and had tablets but I'm still unwell. Did you know that A&E departments give out free tea, coffee and sandwiches and biscuits? Neither did I till my 6 1/2 wait on Monday afternoon!! I eventually saw a young Dr who asked me had I tried Cranberry juice?? I could  have screamed.

It was a nightmare, he gave me some more antibiotics and they have relieved my symptoms, but here I am up in the middle of the night, because I can't sleep and I'm in and out of bed like a yoyo staggering the 17 steps to the toilet!

I think I'll have to see a Dr privately, I can't go on like this,  I'm over tired and at my wits end.

Chrisxx

A happy day.

 We had such a lovely day on Saturday, in spite of the wind and rain! We set off for coffee and croissants, and as we parked the rain stopped, and gave us a break to get to Costa. Of course as Dh has a loyalty card he had a free cake for his birthday! 

We met people we know and chatted and after, while Dh went to the butchers for a rib of beef for our Sunday dinner,  I walked through town to get some tooth paste. I met some one from our gardening group and we chatted about our next meeting, which is our review of the year and celebration, our 'bring and share meal.' It reminded me we would need to buy some presents for the secret Santa.. we needed 2 lots,  as our book group meal has secret Santa pressies too. 

And I found the perfect presents, something I'd like myself. I was so pleased  . 

Dh was happy too and came walking towards me, smiling like a Cheshire cat. We drove home via Rest Bay, which had about 50 plus surfers! And quite a few people on the beach watching. November 1st and only 12C that is dedication!

We watched from inside our warm car, well we're a bit old to be surfing in November!

Chrisxx

Birthday happiness and an unexpected bonus!

 

Today is Dh's birthday and he's had a lovely time.

Yesterday we invited some of our SW friends to join us for lunch at an Italian restaurant and we all ate as though we didn't belong to a sliming group!

Dh and I had pizza because we never have that at home, we brought more than half home as it was too big to eat in one meal for us. Dh had a starter too, Calamari Fritti and I had a taste, wow it was amazing. All six of us had something different and we all  thoroughly enjoyed our meals.. I had Profiteroles for pud, Dh had Tiramisu and all our plates were cleaned. It is so nice to go out and eat normally when you're dieting!!

Such a super time, good food and loads of laughter!

And an absolutely unbelievable letter in the morning for Dh was from HMRC, tax dept, he's had a very substantial amount of money from them, as they had under paid him 21 years ago!! We were whooping it up in our lounge this afternoon. Who would have believed it?

So a lovely day all round and today we have some treats planned for our evening meal. I can see its going to be bread and smell for me the rest of the week before I step on those SW scales, but it was worth it.

Chrisxx

I feel I missed out.

 I am so annoyed because I think I've missed out in life. Mariella Frostrup has been television, promoting her new cook book for women going through the menopause. There is so much talk about that and the perimenopause today. I don't know how other women of my age group dealt with this, but I just got on with it. Nobody knew what I was going through. My best friend, when she got to the 'age' made some muffins supposedly for women going through the 'change' and they were very tasty, but were they good for me? I don't know I just wolfed them down with a nice cup of tea, which I think did me more good than the muffins!

The same it was when I was pregnant. I can't remember anyone going over board when I got to 12 weeks, it came and went. Nobody ever asked me to feel the baby moving and then jumped for joy when they felt it. I didn't have a Baby Shower, yes, I had presents when each was born, but nothing frivolous, a bundle of nappies and a knitted cardi were my gifts and I was very graceful for them. 

Today young people celebrate all different stages of  being pregnant and you can buy all sorts of baby items. I'm always delighted to hear of someone expecting and am happy to feel the baby moving.. and the delight on the expectant mum's face is lovely to see, when I say, yes I can feel the movement. 

So is this way of life today and why do I feel I've missed something?

A lot today is finance, not all couples can buy all the extras that are lovely to have but not an essential, but when you look there are some lovely things out there. This is an example; a blanket on which you you can record your baby's age. Isn't this a lovely idea? And of course there is photographic evidence of the different stages and that didn't happen in the 60s, shame but we had birthday and holiday and Christmas photos, but not every smile! I would have loved something like this for my children.

Ah well at least my children were well dressed and fed well.

Do you think you missed out?

Chrisxx

Does it matter what books you like?

 If I know I have to wait anywhere, I always take a book with me usually my kindle as its light to carry and fits in my hand bag. I was happily sitting with my kindle, when a lady near to me, remarked that she likes real books. I just smiled and said, 'That's nice' and carried on reading. Then she came and sat beside me and leaned over as if to see what I was reading, so I helped her and said 'Its a psychological thriller.' She looked my sort of age. 

'Do you read Harry Potter books?' she asked, I thought where did she get that from. 

'No they're not my sort of book,' I replied and moved away. I really wanted to say, if they were the only books on a desert island, on which I had been cast away, I'd lie on my back and read the passing clouds first!! 

What is wrong with not liking certain genres? A relative of mine used to extol the HP book's virtues and thought they epitomized good against evil. I am not his greatest fan, so let him have his say, but always left the room when he was pontificating.. Why am I writing about this now, because recently his son age 25 has self published an ebook, a kindle book. Its not very good, but he's finding his feet, so still learning, His father hasn't read it, but he is boasting, as though its a best seller. He asked me what I thought, I said J K Rowling has no need to worry! I did say to his son it needed to be developed, but a good effort. 

I'm living far away from them now and don't feel the need to be pleasant all the time, so give him and his wife a swerve. Saves me the anguish and I'm too old now to be bothered.

Chrisxx

An author to treasure.

It wasn't difficult to buy these Richard and Judy book club choices, when I saw there was a T. M. Logan and Freida McFadden books in the group. However I've found David Baldacci not an author I enjoy so I swapped it for 'Frankie' written by Graham Norton.  Graham Norton is an excellent author. He engages the reader in the first few pages, and I've read all his books and never been disappointed. 

Frankie is an old lady that needs a carer after a fall, and the person who turns up is not the person she was expecting. Damian is a young Iris man. He sparks memories in her and the book is the story of her life from post war Ireland to 1960s New York, the reader is immersed into her very different life. Her painter husband, their Bohemian life style, a world in which Frankie's friendships and relationships are too intense to last, but as Frankie's past is slowly emerges, her spirit and endurance are revealed as undeniable and unforgettable.

I loved this book, its a sensitive and beautifully told story and one you'll be sad when its over. I highly recommend this book, as I do of all his books.

Chrisxx

Perfect!

 The best days are those when you don't need anything extreme or special to happen to make it great. You just appreciate and enjoy what it is and that's perfect enough.

And that's been my Sunday. We had a delicious chicken dinner with our own sprouts and baby potatoes, plus some cauliflower and French beans from Mr Tesco, superbly cooked by Dh and then stewed rhubarb and a Banana Custard yogurt, which finished off the meal perfectly. I would have loved this but kept to the SW food plan.

And then we watched the rain running down our windows, and we might have dozed!!  We welcomed the early evening with the clock change, drew the curtains and settled in the warm of our home for the Strictly results, and our choices are through to dance another week, hurrah!! 

What did you do?

Chrisxx

The Words are in the Pictures.

Chrisxx

Stress!!

Our surgery has a good on line system to ask for regular medication. So I try to request my 2 regular tabs a week before they are due. This month I missed the date and so I requested them just days before I ran out. There was no problem requesting them and I checked the next day,  and they had been authorised, so I waited 3 days to allow the chemist to make them up.

When we went to collect them, the one lot was missing. When I asked why I wasn't told they had been unable to get them, the answer was there is a shortage.. I asked, but why hadn't they let me know? Grrrr it was like talking to a repeating machine. I asked again, why  hadn't they let me know, and she kept repeating they don't know what will arrive each day.. to which I replied, I hear and understand what you're  saying, but why didn't you let me know, never mind you couldn't get them, why didn't you let me know, I'm asking you a question??? 

We gave up Dh phoned another Chemist and they had them. I had to get another prescription from the Surgery which wasn't too difficult as there is prescription dept. And we drove to town to get them, whew. I was just a bit stressed I didn't want to run out of my tablets. So in future I will request a paper script and collect it, instead  of having the prescription electronically delivered to that chemist! I can phone around and find a chemist that has my tabs. It was so annoying and stressful!! And stress I can do without!

Chrisxx

SSCO... And stuff!

 Don't you want to scream some days.. Wednesday afternoon we decided to go to Dunelm Mill, as we needed some new non slip shower mats. As we left the house I did say to Dh, don't let me buy any 'stuff' I have enough, as Dunelm Mill is a kaleidoscope of colourful cushions, towels, duvet covers and artificial flowers, glass jars, cutey little boxes, and all sizes of containers, in fact anything you might fancy you think you need for your home and more, and all the things you don't really need at all.  I said, I would just like some new hand towels in the bathroom. 

Once we were in there, we looked at the side sleeper pillows as I have one and we thought Dh might like one, then Dh suggested I might like some new towels, as I don't seem to have the medium sizes, I like two towels when I dry after my shower. I choose a set that matched the bathroom colours and put them in the trolley and the pillow. We then choose 4 new hand towels, all the same colour, so into the trolley they went and then the two new non slip shower mats. 

We moved into the china section and saw some really lovely Denby stone ware dishes with a mute green edging, the colour of our wall tiles in our kitchen. Boxed in Dinner sets of 4 and reduced.. so yes into the trolley it went too. 

Then there were some liners for the basket of our Air Fryer, just what Dh was looking for..the trolley was more or less full, so we trundled off to the check outs..Shock horror they were all SSCO = self service check outs! I asked the one worker there, was there a check out not Self service, she pointed to one at the end of the counter , but it was cash only!

So we started going through items, I was not a happy bunny. Then we came to the boxed Denby and no bar code, the woman stepped forward, she couldn't find the bar code either. So she started the mumble, mumble into her mouth piece, but bobbing back and fro checking other customers, as they used the self check outs, still mumbling into her mouth piece....... talking to the store room, or the time it was taking could have been the Moon, of even Mars?? We waited and waited, I was getting fed up and if there had been a John Lewis or M&S near I'd have walked out saying we'll go else where. 

Eventually she got the price, I stepped forward to check that it was the reduced price, she checked again and it was.. but oh so slow.

We've decided that next time we really NEED to buy from there, we'll take a couple of hundred pounds and go to the one cash check out!!

Chrisxx

My Bête Noir!!

We have a lot of laughs in our SW meetings, and members tell of their greatest pitfalls. It seems that at the moment Aldi's cheese aisle faces the chocolates and all sorts of Christmas goodies. Last week, one member gave us a demonstration of herself, slinking along sidewards to view the cheeses, but without seeing the chocolates. It was very funny, she hammed it up and several members admitted to doing the same thing.

Chocolates don't tempt me, but there is one aisle in Tesco that does. I walk along very slowly drooling at the vast display of ....... sandwiches, there are hundreds.. Not just your common Cheese and Pickle or a BLT, but Ham, Turkey, Stuffing with seasonal dressings, or two Cheeses and Salami, and there's Pigs in Blankets Sandwiches. And what about finest Scottish Salmon and Cream Cheese;  Chicken and Sweetcorn triple sandwich or even Honey Glazed Ham, Red Leicester and Festive Chutney and also Finest Tesco New York Deli inspired  Pastrami and Emmental!! To name but a few...what choices, my mouth waters and I look opened eyed at such delights!

Sunday tea was always a sandwich, after we'd had our Sunday dinner, but the SW food plan only allows one piece of wholemeal bread or 40g of a  cereal or some nuts, as a healthy extra, so a sandwich at tea time eats into your syn allowance and made with just one piece of bread, isn't that filling, so I don't have one. boo hoo.. and just one of those packets of Tesco sandwiches would be my meals for days, not just one meal! I've watched young girls, take a packet of  sandwiches, crisps and a chocolate bar and I long to be young and eating anything I wanted again! The thing is, I didn't eat like that when I was young and shops didn't sell those sandwiches anyway! But I can but dream and drool in that aisle! Do you like a sandwich?

Chrisxx

Talking dirty!!

I've had four nights of insomnia, but then two nights ago, apart from my usual loo visits, I slept for 9 hours! But it seems sleeping that long isn't good either! The day before yesterday Dh and I abandoned going out, as I was so late waking. 

We sat together 'wool gathering' on the side of the bed and then we talked 'dirty!!  What about, food of course!!!...'the dirty word,' as it can be difficult to think of something that's the SW food plan and not just the usual. Evening meals need to be filling, otherwise we feel like picking! But our grapes are still going strong, and they're very tasty to eat in an evening, so not so bad to eat lots of.

But we had this as our meal with our left over chicken.

Using up left over chicken for 2

Cold cooked chicken cut into chunks (Approx: 2 breasts)

2 Rashers of bacon, fat removed and chopped and lightly grilled

1/2 Cauliflower, chopped up

1/2  Onion, chopped up, not too small.

Small handful of broccoli chopped up.

Par boil veg and onion

150 g. pasta twists.. cook.

Make cheese sauce

In 150ml milk add 50g grated cheddar cheese, heat till cheese melts, add tsp mustard, tsp garlic granules and stir in tbs corn-flour.. till thickens and boils,  season to taste.

Pour over chicken, bacon, veg and pasta.. stir and heat through thoroughly and just before serving sprinkle on last 10g cheese.

It was delicious and very filling (For SW it was 1.5 syns for the corn-flour, cheese is the Healthy A choice) For dirty talking it was wow!

Chrisxx

Phones or Books

 Dame Jacqueline Wilson has said parents on phones are the cause in falling literacy in children. If the parents don't read, how will the children learn the pleasure of books? Do you agree I wonder?

I can't remember one day of my life, when I didn't read. I can remember, when I had my first baby I used to read while feeding her, especially if it was a book I was enjoying. Then as she got older I read to her while feeding her! And all four of my children were actively encouraged to read. Saturday mornings was a visit to the library. Once one of my son's girl friend, when he was in his twenties. was astounded to hear that's what we did every Saturday and asked why, he answered to change our books of course! 

It wasn't like that for me, my Grand mother, being of the Victorian era, thought reading for girls was a waste of time. I did most of my reading at the library after school. The librarian kept my book and that suited me.. my grand mother didn't really know what time school finished, so that was fine. Also my aunty had books, so I sneaked those to bed and there were some sexy romance ones, so I was well educated in those matters!! And of course my Aunt paid for me to go to that private school, when I was 10, which were the happiest days of my school days, and as a Boarder I loved it. So books were my life and how I lived.. 

It is strange how some people remember you, when I was in a Slimming World group, when living in Billericay one of the helpers there, started to talk to me and said she remembered me because she worked in the library. She told me how all the staff remembered me, because I trooped into the library every Saturday followed by my trail of four children!  

I think children of today are missing out, where's the adventure, the scary moments, the monster under the bed, and fizzy pop and jam sandwiches if you're not reading? 

If there was ever a day when I couldn't read I'd be bereft!

Chrisxx

More Money than Sense!

 'More money than sense,' was one of the sayings my Aunt that brought me up often said! And the other night I heard her saying just that to me. 

This is our present book club read, I decided to down load a sample onto my kindle to see if I liked it. I didn't read the previous month's book, called 'The Durrells in Corfu', I didn't take to the a TV series and I didn't like the book either, so for once didn't read book club choice. 

So I thought I'd check this new book on my kindle ..it was reading nicely and decided I'd read the book in the morning and I settled down to sleep and was asleep in no time.  However, at just after 3:00 am, I was in the wide awake club, so picked up my kindle to read and carried on reading the Sample... then I got to the end of it, and it was so easy to press 'buy this book' from my comfy warm bed.  And yes that's when I heard my Aunty Glad's voice saying...more money than sense! I am enjoying the book!

Chrisxx

A lot to do...

 We have loads to do to get the garden straight before winter sets in.. we've planted new bulbs in pots, and the new rose in the garden. And the new front pots are planted up, we added some wall flowers in them, the scent in the ones last year was lovely as we opened the front door.

We've dug up the damson tree we brought with us from Suffolk, as it was a new one, but it has never fruited, altho it had some blossom last year but it never came to anything. So that one bed looks fairly tidy. But we have foxglove seedlings and aquilegia to plant, some weeding and the grass needs cutting one last time and two more flower beds to weed and tidy.

All we need is the 'umph' to get going, so perhaps tomorrow??

We did sweep the leaves from the front yesterday, we get a lot from the tall trees that border the school drive about 100 yards from us. Then popped out and bought a tub of yellow chrysanthemums and new pot, to have by the front door. 

It looks very bright and pretty and we felt we had done something.

Is your garden ready and tidy for winter?

Chrisxx

£20 bought happiness!

 My favourite film is 'The Bridges of Madison County' I read the book, bought a cassette tape, read by the author, Robert James Waller and bought the DVD.

Recently I wanted to listen to the tape, but couldn't remember where my cassette player was. Dh had an idea it was still in a drawer from when we moved 4 years ago. So off he went to look and it was in a drawer with some electronic bits, and wow, he also had the tape in the same drawer! With a new battery it worked! I was so pleased and sat with my head phones listening yesterday afternoon with some knitting.. cosy! 

Then he produced the DVD, but we remembered we'd got rid of the DVD player years ago, I was just a bit upset, but Dh looked up how much to rent it via Prime.. hardly any cost so we thought we could do that at the weekend.

I'd forgotten all about it... however then this morning (Friday) when I got up, Dh asked when I'd like to watch the DVD.. because when I'd gone to get ready for bed the night before, he'd looked at DVD player's on Amazon, and bought one, only £20, and it arrived at 8:00 am that morning!! He was so pleased he'd got it for me. So we've got out the other films we have and are going to watch some on those evenings, when the TV is rubbish!

Better get my tissues ready!!

Chrisxx

Was that move a brave one?

 It was very brave to buy that house, you're right Kirsty, but it appealed to me as soon as I stepped through that front  door.

After paying the costs to move I had less than £30 left in my every day account, and enough in my bill account for one month, altho I did have some money in savings account, but I had to give 3 months notice to withdraw some, so not easy. But I had to do something to change the way my life was, I was stressed and at my lowest ebb.

Why did that house appeal to me?

It had a good size hall, so it didn't feel small. 

A reasonable size garden, very important!!

An inside wall that wasn't joined to next door, for my beloved piano!

The road itself, all the houses had tidy front gardens so looked pretty.

And that was all I saw!! 

Against it .....It had a very small galley kitchen, it had false tudor style beams on the walls in the lounge/ dining room (ugh) a horrible dirty carpet, it smelt, and no double gazing, and it needed a good clean and a stained pink bathroom. It had dormer bedrooms with flat roofs, which the surveyor said would need replacing with a 18 months. I'd left a large house with 2 bathrooms and and her toilet and in perfect condition.  Was I mad buying it? It meant no mortgage, and I wouldn't have that job that I felt was making me ill. 

So I stepped out in faith.. that first night, two of my sons who had helped me move, bought fish and chips. then later the dog, Boysie  who I had then and I went to sleep, with boxes all around, but I was happy. 

I did no work that first week, but with my youngest son, we took the false beams off the walls, and bit by bit lifted the carpet and the awful dog pee soaked underlay and dumped it all outside.  He sawed the one work surface in the kitchen, to fit in the washing machine and the dishwasher and then I used their tops as work surfaces. I then painted the doors of the two wall cupboards and one base unit, a mellow yellow, as that's what a friend had going spare! It was lovely, I thought.

Then I did supply work, but only 4 days week, to allow me to get straight....  the garden first of course, I had loads of plants in pots and seeds.. it was May,  so nice gardening weather.  I saved the money after the bills and with no mortgage or endowment  to pay,  I had quite a bit. I gradually changed the windows and all the doors, had the walls plastered and sorted out the floors. I had an unexpectant a large tax rebate and so bought what I had always wanted, a raspberry pink carpet throughout downstairs, the hall, stairs and landing.. I had been there 2 years before I had that carpet and I was 60, so I had my pension.. 

Then in time I had a large extension, kitchen/ breakfast room, down stairs loo and new bathroom built.. plus the new roofs, on the dormer bedrooms. I redesigned the front garden, had paths and steps laid and enjoyed my home and garden. It took close on 5 years before it was really finished. 

 Pic is to show the carpet.. much later with Nell!

Parts of the new kitchen 

 

And the garden when I left there.

Not big, but just right for me at that time.

Chrisxx

The open road to???

  I had a message this week about someone  I used to know slightly years ago. He had gone missing after leaving his home and wife for work one morning and not heard of again. Not a trace of him even with country wide police searches.

It was assumed he had an accident and his body never found.

But I've learnt recently that he had gone to Australia and started a new life.. stranger than fiction? Cruel I think,  to leave someone and they always wonder what happened. How did he think his wife and family would cope. I didn't know him or his family that well. but if I had I think I'd have given him a piece of mind!

But one day I had an inkling as to what might have happened. I used to drive along lanes like these to work and on sunny mornings driving into the sunshine, I once had a feeling of driving and driving and driving, into the green leafy lane and escaping!! Where to? And where from?? Daft because I lived by myself, in my own beautiful house in the Essex town which I loved.

When I got home that night I phoned my best friend and after a long chat with her, I sat down and wrote my resignation letter!

I decided I'd down size... It wasn't an easy decision I earned a very good salary as Deputy, but I wasn't happy, so why was I doing something that was causing me stress. When I left that school I wasn't 60, so no retirement money and for a few months no wages. And living in a house, where one of my friends burst into tears when she saw it,  because it did indeed look pretty awful compared to the big house I left. But it was a life saver for me and became beautiful; I was working within weeks and I slowly changed that house with my  youngest son's help and after living there for 13 years it had tripled in price. 

It was a lovely house and I loved it, probably because it didn't just give me a home, but healed my mind. 

If you've ever felt like escaping from your life, you'll know how I felt that morning.

Chrisxx 

Such a naughty one or a pest.

 This naughty little fellow has been digging in our front lawn burying conkers! Just as we were leaving our home yesterday, Dh stopped me to look and there was the squirrel digging away! Do hope the conker doesn't grow, I don't really fancy a Horse Chestnut tree in my front garden. We've only ever seen him before in our the back,  skipping along our back fence.

But our neighbour in #15 has told us that, he had seen it going into #10,  as they live straight opposite,  so have a view from their kitchen window.

It seems, it is going in under the over hang of the roof, so probably into the roof space. #10 is being refurbished so the builder isn't there all the time. I know squirrels can be real pests, because a friend of mine had them take over her loft, and had to hire a marks man to shoot them!

I think our neighbour is getting in touch with the builder to inform him. Sad to think what I think is a cute little fellow, is a very big pest. We always check our roof over hang and have the gutters and the over hand cleaned regularly.

Chrisxx

Loving her more and more.

 I've now read 9 books by Elizabeth Berg, there is something about her gentle writing that appeals to me and I look forward to bed time, when I'm reading one of her books.

'Open House' revolves around Sam, Samantha. When her husband said he was leaving her, it came as a big and unpleasant surprise. This is one of those books written in the 'true voice,' that makes you feel you're there at the kitchen table with the characters going through the painful divorce. I so admire Elizabeth Berg's style, to me she is so talented in putting words together to form the most breathtaking sentences. 

This is not your book of the older woman left, who then meets the handsome young man, who just happens to be her gardener, oh no, not at all. I laughed at her mother's advice of getting a pedicure and then getting out there! I loved Sam, her resilience in the face of adversity, planning to do something totally foreign to her. 

But she does have to find a way to support herself and her eleven year old son. Hence the 'Open House,' when she decides to take in lodgers, some rather quirky, like 'Lavender Blue' the girl who lived in the basement, a metaphor for the lost and aimless in love,  and one that proved to become an unexpected friend.  We learn about her lodgers and their relationship with Sam and her son. I love the conversations between the characters, nothing false but like real people talking, there is the element of comedy.. She meets up with King, who helps her by directing her to an agency, so she has some part time jobs, dog walking, furniture moving and telemarketing. King is a friend that really helps her, as she attempts to survive this new way of life. 

The one criticism I have, is that it ended too quickly, but I was saved from being lost as I had another Elizabeth Berg book waiting for me, as of course I would.

Chrisxx 

My night time life!

 Yes I'm sorry I didn't post, for a while there weren't any words in my head, now there too many, all jumbled up! Seeing. what seemed to us a moon light flit from the house down our road, which of course it wasn't at all, we just didn't see them go. It got me thinking how you don't know what you can't do, till you can't. For example I didn't know I couldn't balance on a moving upward travellator, till I fell on it! By the way my botty is still bruised and tender!

Its old age, it sort of creeps up on you, like a cat with socks on, you don't know its there, until it is! Each night part of my prayers for myself is that, I'll sleep well. I read until I feel my eyes closing and then at approximately 23:23 each night the same time, I put my pillow flat and after one last loo visit,  settle down to sleep. 

I can usually go till about 01:30 when my bladder says 'yo-hoo' and I shuffle the 16 steps to the bathroom, the door is left open and the toilet seat up.. after all its only me up, Dh sleeps all night! I repeat the 16 steps there and 16 back, twice more times before the morning.. altho at the first pit stop I take my thyroxin tab and at my last I take some tabs for my aches and pains, and after that it means I sleep for as long as three hours plus! I didn't know three years ago I would have to get up three time every night. It used to concern me, but when speaking to other women in my age group, I learnt they too get up three times each night, I didn't feel so concerned. I just wish my Dr had told me, it wasn't just me, it would have saved me some grief! 

So there you are, my night time life, which arrived unannounced approx. three years ago.. I take my time in the mornings and sit with my first cup of tea and watch the birds on our feeders and slowly wake up, talking to God and saying a thank you that at Dh and I are awake together. Old age arrived and I didn't realise it would so fast, but do you know, its not so bad, I don't worry about dust or the odd cobweb, its not important to me any more and the quiet of a new day allows me to 'wool gather' and talk to you.

Chrisxx

Squirrels/Bulbs/Garden.

 We still have quite a bit of colour in our garden and this is thriving, It was a small snippet I brought with me from Suffolk. Fuchsias always make a great show, the way they spill out over pathways.

We have planted new tulip bulbs in pots and a selection of daffodils, they all go on the patio out the back because I love to look out at them from the lounge. Dh has planted yet more Snowdrops, although I'm not convinced they will grow. All the ones we planted in the 'green' disappeared, but we have found walnut shells buried near to where we planted them, and as we've seen the squirrel skipping along the fence carrying a walnut, we assume he has feasted on our 150 snowdrop bulbs! 

So we're gradually putting our garden to bed as it were for the winter. There will be one more cut of the lawn and we top dress our flower beds and I lightly prune the roses.. this year we've decided to leave the dahlias in the ground as one I missed year survived the winter..  We don't get very severe frosts and with a good 2 inch top dressing they should survive. What do you do to get through the winter in the garden?

Chrisxx

Nearly back to normal

 Life has interrupted my plans, so sorry I've not been visiting blogs or even written mine. But we seem to be less rushed, so I'm back to my usual blog life.! Thank you for the messages.. nice to be thought about.

I've read some good books and done some gardening and done a lot of Welsh.. Rydw i'n gwella wrth y siarad Cymraeg.

New post tomorrow.

Chrisxx

What would you have done?

My husband and I feel really sad, because a house in our little close has gone up for sale and when we passed it yesterday it looked completely empty.. I checked the Estate Agent page on line and yes the house is empty.. nothing left, even the curtains gone and the light shades.

About two years ago we saw a whole lot of walking aides, ramps and a bed being delivered there. Then we recognized a district nurse going in because she had visited me when I had that catheter.. we don't see a lot of what happens in the cul de sac because our living room is in the back of our bungalow, its only if we're in the kitchen preparing or clearing up after a meal. We also noticed the purple sacks used for rubbish to be burnt, with their regular black sack rubbish. So we assumed somebody had been taken ill. I wanted to knock and ask was there anything we could do, or was there something we could fetch. But I was persuaded not to, although its the Welsh way to knock someone's door if you think they're not well.  

I also noticed that there was always a landing light left on at night, like us; we leave our outside lights on, and a lamp on in the hall all night. Then a few weeks ago there wasn't a light there.

And now they've gone and we didn't even see them go.. so sad to think we didn't even realise for a week they were no longer there. I hope it was they wanted a change, although it looks like something happened and they had to move. What do you think, would you  have  knocked and ask if everything was alright?

Chrisxx

 

Quilting again

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With the changing weather I've taken out my quilting again and decided to carry on  hand stitching this. I cut out loads of the fabric to piece together ages ago and keep meaning to pick it up. I'm proud to say it is my only wip! I have 7 blocks made.

If  When I finish it I'll give it away as we've no need for any more quilts.. Strange to be sewing again but the simple act of stitching is comforting. I might get fed up and machine it, but I'll try hand sewing for a while, it's very calming.

Do you have a calming hobby?

Chrisxx

You are more than you think.

 

The Foot Prints we leave behind!!

Chrisxx

Some people!

 I've bought this rose for my DD's birthday and phoned her yesterday evening to say it was on the way and to hear about her weekend, as they went away.. 

I was just listening to her telling me, that they had gone to Blue Water for her to buy some birthday bits, when her husband kept chiming in and adding to what she was saying. As if she isn't capable to talk for herself. Its so annoying and I think demeaning for her. 

I wish he'd just shut up and let her speak..I don't like his ways, he's such a difficult man. full of his own importance. But she married him so I mostly keep my mouth shut. On Sunday some friends joined them for Sunday dinner, and I asked who cooked, she said that she had.. to my remark, but it was your birthday?  She answered that she had Saturday eating out.. SO I said??? Almost as though  was allowed time off from kitchen duties! Anyway I made an excuse and hung up. I didn't want to upset her by making any further remarks, but really I wanted to say, all sorts of things, too awful to write here!!

Chrisxx

Face Book?

Yesterday I had a flash back to when I was a young mum and we had first moved from here, my home town, to Billericay in Essex. Just some thing on Face Book triggered the memories, the awful loneliness and the cold house and the mile walk to town. I did walk all the way at least twice a week, to the bank and of course the library. We moved because my husband had got a job in an office in London. It was December 1968.

I had lived there a year before I made a friend, Den, and she is still my friend although she doesn't live there now and speaking to her on the phone, she is very confused, but still knows me, she is 90 years old now. 

She stopped off at my house three afternoons on her way home from work and we had a cup of tea and chatted for a good hour.  On her days when she wasn't working we still got together for a chat! Her two girls stayed with me, if they were off school, and she had my youngest son, when I had my driving lessons, so we had a good friendship and laughed a lot but also cried together. She was my main stay, when I was going through my divorce and it was she who found out about the college in Brentwood, that was offering Degree Courses.  So it was she that gave me my escape route to be able to support myself and buy my own house.

So strange how she came into my mind, but her eldest daughter has accepted my as a friend on FB and as she has a very active FB page, I see my friend all the time.. there are some very good things on FB that I never thought existed! Do you have a FB account?

Chrisxx

Summer pot to Winter pot!

 Last years front pot, over grown and out of shape and the rectangular shaped pot had broken.

What with the excessive heat of the summer and the deluge of the week before last, its a wonder anything survived! But I can honestly say I've never seen  plants grow so big that they crack and break their container.

So when we went to buy a new container, Dh suggested we get something really nice..but there wasn't a lot to chose from but these looked ok.. I was dubious at first but actually they look rather nice..

The plants are still  very small but they will grow and I love those mauve pink winter pansies. The pots will weather a bit I hope and the plants will grow and drape over the sides of the pots. 

But we've started getting the garden winter ready, have you?

Chrisxx