Screaming!

 

Why is it that makes us want to scream and scream and scream again.. and why do women more than men feel that way?

Or perhaps men do, but don't say?

I have been plodding along following the SW food plan to the letter and over the last 5 weeks I've only lost 3 pounds.. but now I've discovered my thyroxine dose isn't high enough. So no matter what I did, I would not have lost any large amounts of weight. I suppose the one thing in its favour is that, by keeping to the plan, it has kept me from gaining a whole big weight gain, but that doesn't make up for the amount of effort I've made this last few months. Never mind the cost of the weekly SW fee I spent.

Its so frustrating and depressing I feel like crying! And I  did when the scales said 0.5 pounds gain this morning.

And because of this weight problem, everything else seems wrong.

I suppose the one good thing is I have clothes that fit me and look decent.. because when I first started gaining weight 4 years ago bought some really decent clothes from that Norwegian firm https://www.gudrunsjoden.com/en-gb so I have some lovely dresses to wear. The beauty of this firm is the clothes for the bigger woman are still stylish and the sleeves are not too long, nor is the neck gaping.. some cheaper firms make the clothes big all over, so things look like ill fitting tents!

If you've never had a weight problem you will never understand how I feel about this and how it affects my life.  It dictates my moods, how I react to situations and how I can be with other people. I haven't even written my blog, nor have I visited any, so must put that right. 

I felt down and just gave in and the rain last week didn't help.. anyway a blood test booked for 8th Oct.. took me 48.3 mins on the phone to do that, so I can go from there.

Its going to be Pysgod a Sglodion tonight for a change! 

A calming photo of the Lookout from the sandhills, taken from FB, sooths my soul.

Chrisxx