I had a message this week about someone I used to know slightly years ago. He had gone missing after leaving his home and wife for work one morning and not heard of again. Not a trace of him even with country wide police searches.
It was assumed he had an accident and his body never found.
But I've learnt recently that he had gone to Australia and started a new life.. stranger than fiction? Cruel I think, to leave someone and they always wonder what happened. How did he think his wife and family would cope. I didn't know him or his family that well. but if I had I think I'd have given him a piece of mind!
But one day I had an inkling as to what might have happened. I used to drive along lanes like these to work and on sunny mornings driving into the sunshine, I once had a feeling of driving and driving and driving, into the green leafy lane and escaping!! Where to? And where from?? Daft because I lived by myself, in my own beautiful house in the Essex town which I loved.
When I got home that night I phoned my best friend and after a long chat with her, I sat down and wrote my resignation letter!
I decided I'd down size... It wasn't an easy decision I earned a very good salary as Deputy, but I wasn't happy, so why was I doing something that was causing me stress. When I left that school I wasn't 60, so no retirement money and for a few months no wages. And living in a house, where one of my friends burst into tears when she saw it, because it did indeed look pretty awful compared to the big house I left. But it was a life saver for me and became beautiful; I was working within weeks and I slowly changed that house with my youngest son's help and after living there for 13 years it had tripled in price.
It was a lovely house and I loved it, probably because it didn't just give me a home, but healed my mind.
If you've ever felt like escaping from your life, you'll know how I felt that morning.
Chrisxx
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